The Pre​-​T Album

by Camryn Gustafson

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My Pre-T Album!
This is my start, so get ready to get sad and/or angsty.
Lets feel some feelings!

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released February 4, 2017

Big Big Big Thanks to Donnie Caronna, and the whole Caronna family for hosting, mixing, and putting love into this album!

Album cover by Gina Boon!

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Camryn Gustafson Portland, Oregon

Queer/Trans artist from Portland, Or

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Track Name: The Avalanche Song
(Chorus)
Well I'm too young to be an avalanche
You're hanging on by the slightest glance
You're not the type to understand
I shouldn't have to hold your hand

And you got me on a leash that feels like a noose
and you haven't released your grip or the truth
cause ya think I'm runnin'
And you have a niche for singin' the blues
and you come on too strong, too soon
cause you think I'm runnin'

(Chorus)

And you're painting on your mask with your slight of hand
and youre making decisions like quick sand
cause you think I'm like him
And you want me to stay, but I can't say the same
and you're playing your cards like this is a game
cause you think I'm like him

And I'm sorry, but this just has to end
I need a place of solid land
and this mountain is coming down

(Chorus)
Track Name: Polka Dot Boy
I met a polka dot boy
He has stars in his eyes
and when you told him
you'd see the stars in his eyes

With all the tatters in my care
he shows me good and right and fair
and when he hold me
I see the patterns in his hair
(Chorus)
And if everythings
how it ought to be
and we're made of the same things
Then I'll,
I'll thank the trees for lending his sweet heart to me
his sweet

With every word that he says
I dream more days up in my head
that he will hold my hands
with freckles brown and red

oh he makes me singx2
you know I love it when he sings x3
(chorus)
Track Name: History Repeats Itself
I used to love playgrounds before I became one
They came in at night and burned me down
and my skin was made of chain link fence
but my heart was made of wood

so mold me more
make me sore
cause it's nothing I have not felt before

(Chorus)
History repeats itself
and big pain casts a big shadow
and paper cuts turn into knives
how do you create your lies and eat them

Grappling hooks have nothing on you
You said sit down and bleed for me
And your arms were made of bolt cutters
and your mouth spewed venom words

so fool me more
make me sure
that it's nothing I have ever felt before

(Chorus)

and I will shed my skin
and I will breathe again
and I wont let you win
when will I let someone in
without thinking

History repeats itself and big pain casts a big shadow
Track Name: Be Good
(Chorus)
Just accept it
for what it is
reflect on it
and who you were
and be good
to yourself and others
Be good
for what it's worth

It don't matter
if your hurt
to the letters on the paper
and what you're told
and the letters to the parents
that were never read
about the letters on the paper
and what was said

(chorus)
what it's worth
tell us what it's worth

The path you're on
that's where you'll lead
the way they take you
you can always leave

And if you're lost
you've been there before
If you're lost
you'll just find another door

(Chorus)
What it's worth
what's it all worth
tell us what it's worth
won't you tell us what it's worth
if we're lost
Track Name: Paige's Song
You have seen
Water falls
You have been so far
and not at all
I'm sorry if this is a scary change
but my dear it's just
another page

I have seen
so many walls
I have let you see them fall
I wish the wait would go by so much faster
but I know you need to write this chapter

(Chorus)
If you can't
find the time
to call me back
we'll be fine
and I know that
you need time
to write

We have seen
each other grow
now I have to let you go
later we will take a second look
but right now you need to write your book

(Chorus)
Track Name: Placeholders Club
Did you feel the bookmark
in between our hands
Did you think I'd make the
perfect book end
Did you put that ribbon
in my bed
Have you ever felt your heart in your head

(Chorus)
Placeholders club
Placeholders club
member number one
I'll never be your number one

You drew us as flowers
You didn't give me roots
We could talk for hours
What did it mean to you
Can you hear your name behind every word
we wrote each other poetry
but you never showed me yours
(Chorus)

If I could give you the blame I would
but I always understood that
your journal was fill in the blank
and I filled in the blank
now she fills in the blank for good
(Chorus)
Track Name: Thriller-Killer
Wicker gags and tricky lullabies
Are you mistaken my darlin'
Are you just tryin' to make me cry
that's so thoughtful my darlin'

If your thoughts are so college rule
why am I on your mind

(Chorus)
You're a thriller killer darlin'
and I think you know that I know
There's a fine line in the cement
where our dreams grow
and you
and you
cut mine down a long time ago

Through a westland afternoon
you weaved my eyes into the moons attic room
is there a message you'd like to send
before you push me down the river bend

If I'm breathin' in your fumes
how much time do I own

(Chorus)

Youre a thriller killer darlin
and I think you know that I know
there's a fine line in the cement
where our dreams grow
and you
and you aren't my darlin'
anymore

Wicker gags and tricky lullabies
I swear i'm not just tryin' to make you cry
Track Name: On Your Feet
I've lived one hundred lives
and none of them have treated me fine
I know what it's like to climb a mountain
even though I've never tried

I am the bees no one wants to save my life
I am the trees force surrender to the knife

and I
will build you a house if its what you want
and you
won't build me a house if it's what I need

You've said one hundred lives
if I work it'll all turn out fine
my work is discounted no matter how hard I try

My chest is weak I've got pain in my thighs
I need some sleep it's so loud at night

But I'll
still build you a house if it's what you want
and you
won't build me a house if it's what I need

yes I am young and hungry
and I don't have a say
don't mean I wanna throw my whole life down the drain

Yes we are young and hungry
and we don't have a say
don't mean we wanna throw our whole lives down the drain

Yes we are young and hungry
and you are so afraid
don't mean we're gonna throw our whole lives down the drain

We'll build our houses on your feet
oh
we'll build our houses on your feet
oh
we'll build our houses
on your feet